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Jul. 22nd, 2013 | 02:37 pm
mood: ecstaticecstatic
music: dishonored ost - "honor for all"

"It's just so beautiful," she sobs into her Corvo Wanted poster shirt, finally looking up from her writing of a creation myth for the Outsider upon the arrival of a small, rectangular package.



can I just

have a moment plz

omgCollapse )

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fanmix: the silence deafened (hannibal)

Jul. 14th, 2013 | 06:57 pm
mood: mellowmellow
music: muse - "time is running out"

Reminded that a) I really need to expand my music library at this point, and b) Hugh Dancy is a fine, fine man.

hannibal || will graham + falling

a perfect circle || the outsider [resident renholder remix]
deftones || change
jem || 24
black light burns || iodine sky
florence + the machine || girl with one eye
puscifer || rev. 22:20 [dry martini mix]
emancipator || ares
tricky || excess
tool || vicarious
halou || wholeness
lunatic soul || summerland


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i finally got myself sorted on pottermore

Jul. 8th, 2013 | 09:43 pm
mood: confusedconfused
music: just playing 'dishonored: knife of dunwall'

and got slytherin, which surprised me so much i made a second account and tried it again.  and got slytherin.  again.

and i just

always figured myself for a gryffindor or ravenclaw

i feel like the foundation of my world has crumbled

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myth rambling for fic

Jul. 5th, 2013 | 08:39 pm
mood: dorkydorky
music: assassin's creed ii

For The Boatman, Crossed by Death.

I have a tendency to take on ambitious projects that may or may not betray my baseline level of pretension but WHATEVER, OKAY, I DO WHAT I WANT, THOR.  So in lieu of ALL the religion and mythos that I want in Dishonored, which is honestly an impossible level to reach because there will NEVER BE ENOUGH EVER, I thought I'd write my own.  Which, again, quite possibly very pretentious, but that just means I was right all along and Pottermore should've put me in Ravenclaw.

  • A lot of this was based off info from the Dishonored Wiki, particularly the way the individual Isles relate to real-world nations.  More of it was inspired by Peter Jeans' Seafaring Lore and Legend, which I admit I bought purely because of this goddamn game.  I don't have the book on me because Boyfriend is borrowing it, and I can't cite specifics off the top of my head, but if you have any questions let me know and I will happily get back to you.

  • A couple unnamed characters come from the cultist scribblings in the Knife of Dunwall DLC.

  • I'm going to wait for the Brigmore Witches DLC before attempting anything about them; I figure enough of this is going to get Jossed as it is.

Simultaneous over-analysis and broad generalizations, go ~Collapse )

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fanmix: strangeness and doubt

Jun. 27th, 2013 | 04:54 pm
mood: accomplishedaccomplished
music: apocalyptica - "peace"

Title from Litany on the White Cliff.  This fucking game, goddamn.

[ dishonored || corvo attano + betrayal ]

mass effect || leaving earth
rob dougan || left me for dead
collide || some kind of strange
apocalyptica || peace
puscifer || the undertaker
muse || take a bow
infected mushroom || heavyweight
collide || feed me to the lions
tricky || excess
bush || mouth [the stingray mix]
lunatic soul || where the darkness is deepest
a perfect circle || judith [renholder remix]
lacuna coil || our truth

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ao3 versus lj

Jun. 21st, 2013 | 06:46 pm
mood: tiredtired
music: blue stahli - "corner (ad astra remix)"

Lately I've been linking fic to AO3 rather than crossposting it to LJ.  I was wondering: should I go back to crossposting, or is the AO3 linking all right?

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fic: crossing the heartline (dishonored)

Jun. 21st, 2013 | 04:53 pm
mood: anxiousanxious
music: dishonored ost - "honor for all"

crossing the heartline
Dishonored || PG-13 (Low Chaos) || Corvo, the Outsider || ~840 words

He tells himself that he doesn’t kill every goddamn target because she wouldn’t have wanted him to. He reminds himself that Emily shouldn’t begin her reign on a foundation of corpses infected by something much more ruthless than plague. Truth is: it isn’t true. Not entirely.


In which I tried to justify Low Chaos to myself and thought, hey, let’s share.

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Jun. 20th, 2013 | 03:31 pm
location: California, Santa Cruz
mood: ;__;
music: someone making farting sounds down the street

In which I am once again struck by how much I miss hanging out with chofi, artimusdin, arin_rowan, and tir_synni, and how much I miss marathoning SPN and generally being dorks with fateofshadow.

i love you so much

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fic: too daze gone (ff7, aeris/tifa)

Jun. 18th, 2013 | 07:08 pm
location: California, Santa Cruz
mood: relaxedrelaxed
music: hipster coffee shop conversation

Too Daze Gone
FF7 || PG-13 (language, innuendo) || Aeris/Tifa pre-slash || 4,100 words
Aeris is a witch, a sort of go-to advisor and supplier to hunters of all types and skills that drift in and out.  It gets rather lonely after a while, though, with only a stubborn rhododendron and a few vinyls for constant company, so she's going to take any chance she can to get back on the road and get to know this Tifa better.

  • Fusion with SPN (i.e. a modern AU with monster hunting)

  • Part of the Black Magic Woman series, which includes god put a song on my palm (Aeris/Tifa, established relationship) and This Isn't Going to Wash Out (Zack/Cloud/Sephiroth, backfired spells and tentacle/wing/anthro sex, idek)

  • Originally meant to be a longer fic for the femmeslash_bang challenge, but the community seemed to die before the challenge was ever finished, so I'm posting part of what I had as a oneshot in an ongoing series.

( “Most people call me a witch,” Aeris tells her cheerfully, and hides her grin behind her glass when Tifa chokes a little.  “Well, minus the whole demonic soul-selling thing.  That’s just irresponsible.  Gives the rest of us a bad name.” )

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fic: untitled 'carol danvers + back-from-the-dead!Steve' (Avengers, gen)

Mar. 3rd, 2013 | 06:58 pm
mood: hungryhungry
music: skyrim OST

untitled 'carol danvers + back-from-the-dead!Steve'

MCU || PG - post-Civil War || Carol, Steve || ~480 words
For captainsmarvelandamerica, who wanted a take on the background convo between Carol and Steve on his miraculous return:

“You Army boys can’t do anything right,” she deflects, except she kind of sucks at it because her voice does that cracking thing that hasn’t happened since she stopped waking up with the taste of whiskey in the back of her throat. Collapse )

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fic: lessons learned (avengers, gen)

Dec. 21st, 2012 | 03:08 am
mood: discontentwired
music: emancipator - "lionheart"

Lessons Learned at a Crucial Point in Time
MCU || PG-13 || Tony Stark, the team || ~4,860 words
Several times Tony had no one to save him but himself, and one time he did.
  • Warnings: suggested underage sexual activity, emotional manipulation
  • Written for dante_s_hell for the Avengers Holiday Exchange

( And Tony, he’s a smart fucking guy, he learns: your enemies teach you the best tricks, that people see what they want to see, and that if you have get stuck with someone else then at least make sure it’s another scientist or two. )

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marathoning gundam wing

Nov. 16th, 2012 | 03:41 pm
mood: scaredscared
music: heero dripping blood

god help us all

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all these years and i'm still finding room for cloud feelings

Nov. 13th, 2012 | 01:54 am
mood: coldcold
music: Emancipator - "First Snow"

Writing fic the other day, it occurred to me that Sephiroth calls Cloud by his first name while all ~Jenova'd~ but would've used "Strife" (or Private Strife, Cadet Strife, whatever) when sane.  Like, during his puppet mindfuckery it'd be a perversion of the intimacy that comes with using a personal name, but while he's actually capable of human interaction there'd be distance with the use of the surname Strife and most likely an awareness of their differences in authority.

Crazy-->fucked-up version of intimacy
Sane-->surnames and more professional distance

I think there's something sad and ironic in all this.

i just found this interesting in terms of, well, intimacy and its issues, idk

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disclaimers, canon, translations, and references for 'dreaming electric'

Oct. 29th, 2012 | 02:50 am
mood: twitchy
music: Covenant - "Bullet"

Since the notes were mildly unwieldy when listed on AO3. I hope I got everything.Collapse )

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fic: dreaming electric (avengers, steve/tony)

Oct. 27th, 2012 | 02:59 pm
mood: scaredterrified
music: The Avalanches - "Frontier Psychiatrist"

Dreaming Electric
MCU || NC-17 || Steve/Tony (Tony/Pepper breakup, bawww) || ~48,000 words

New York City is still rebuilding in the wake of the Chitauri army when the biotech virus Extremis is released, upgrading a lone domestic terrorist into a posthuman threat. Tony would’ve been happy to keep going on playing with alien tech in his lab, saving average citizens as Iron Man, and pretending not to notice these other people moving into his tower, but sometimes a person just can’t have nice things.

My artists: waferkya (link pending) + angelicfoodcake.  Please give them some well-deserved love.
  • Dedicated to tir_synni, whose notebook I accidentally destroyed with yakisoba and so repaid with actually finishing this (plus a new notebook).  She and my BFF gave me feedback; all remaining mistakes are my own and my stubbornness'.
  • Warnings: referenced past child abuse; some disturbing and violent imagery; a very small amount of subtextual internalized homophobia; a few mentions of anti-Semitism, racism, and political extremism.
  • Spoilers for Marvel’s oneshot Item 47.
  • Movie-verse with the substantial use and abuse of 616 canon (see endnotes for more specifics).
  • Questionable use of science, programming, a couple non-English phrases, and too many references to pop culture and science fiction.
  • Some characters get little to no face-time because I ran out of time and, since this is technically for the Cap and Iron Man community, I wanted to stay focused. I’m working on companion bits for Rhodey, Natasha, and Pepper in particular.
  • If anyone’s read my FFVII stuff, a couple asides might be familiar. Whoops.
  • Have a music download.
  • Posted to AO3 because I don't have the time to fight LJ's word limits right now.
( "I wonder what counts as AI porn?" Tony wonders out loud. "Shoving a plug into a socket? Siri and her filthy little dirty-talk?" )

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